Passive stimulation (as in drugs or sexual pleasure), discipline (exercise or the practice of an instrument) and risk (taking a potentially embarrassing or harmful leap): these are three paths to the transcendental, three modes of true will. Each dissolves personal identity and reconfigures normative coordinates in its own way. Each has a sensible, affective quality - each is a kind of pleasure-pain at an increased level of intensity. And each is a reaction to an underlying pain which must be escaped, which pain is perhaps the distorted form of a will with which I must ultimately conform and which is not mine: HAQQ